Antes que Enero termine

Bastante tiempo que me tire sin dar noticias !
No quiero dejar mi blog en el olvido, simplemente no habia interes, un bajon, para variar, pero aqui estoy ya!
Volvi de Mexico, y bien, el jetlag no fue tan malo, pues fui a trabajar bien, me adapte a la vida aqui, llegue super gastado y este mes igual que con el servicio de mi moto, cubriendo un poco gastos del pasado, etc… Pero ya, me voy a poner las pilas.
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Entre todas mis actividades laborales y asuntos personales me tuve que pedir 2 dias libres, hoy y maniana, y vale, aunque hoy lo cuento como vacaciones trabaje 1hr y media desde casa.
Pero antes, anoche sali, con mi mejor amigo aqui, ufff Lunes por la noche fenomenal! mucho mejor que en fin de semana.
A un bar, despues a bailar, y vaya que me traigo un buen pegue, y aunque me la intento llevar tranquilo (aja), yo en mi rollo baile y baile, cotorreando con mi amigo, no en el plan de cazeria, sin querer conoci a alguien. Mas que nada en el bar…
Me enamore, bueno, eso sucedio hoy; con esta misma persona del bar
Lo invite a bailar pero iba con su amiga y se fue a casa, aunque a las 2am mi telefono sonando invitandome ir a su casa, pero yo ya rumbo a la mia (rumbos TOTALMENTE distintos), me dio hueva porque tenia que llevar mi moto al taller esta maniana.
Ademas tranquilo! Le dije que hoy, ya que tengo el dia libre despues de lo del taller.
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El ir hasta su casa que me tomo 1 hr y como £5 libras ida y vuelta (puto transporte Londines, carisimo!) valio la pena, divino. Polaco, 25. Hermoso.
Bien recuerdo mi post: I love milky boys, pues este dorado, rubio, y lo mejor, inteligente, sin pluma, buen trabajo y le guste!!
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Fantastico! Estoy enamorado (vale, admito me enamoro con frecuencia )
Me gusta que estamos en contacto, chatting por sms pues, como tontos adolescentes, pero entre todos mis quehaceres (que ando de arriba y pa abajo siempre corriendo en esta ciudad, incluso en mis dias libres!), me provoco una motivacion enorme, inspiracion?! Una gran paz y satisfaccion con todo, p. ej. con el trabajo que hice por la tarde aunque no tendria porque haberlo hecho.
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Y la vida aunque aqui sea un sube y baja cabron, es super bella.

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Two years

London, December 20th 2009.
Amazing! Two years now since I last went to Mexico. They passed so fast. Life seems to run each of them at a faster pace; overwhelming when there’s no time to stop and see around. Nothing special, just life happening.
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But the game remains keep playing on my head: all obligations there… so preocupied with my own created complications.
Yet they all arise so unexpected, changes of opinion happen 1, 2, 3, again!
So then, who chose to do that in the end?
And suddenly in the attempt of finding relief of this speed, I look back, seeking pleasure on nice memories, which really end up fucking up my perception. It, all, looks better back then.
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Now nothing is as wanted.
It then only seems like death would put an end to this game. So much feared but at the same time desired.

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All about town

My colleague, friend: Birgit came to visit last weekend.
Of course even when I resisted I couldn’t escape from the odd tourist guide thing, at least for a bit, but then I brought her to other corners I like.
In the process she made many pics, so did I. Here I tried to resemble many together and hope it’s of good taste for the eye of the viewer

http://www.flickr.com/photos/g10zyd

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Anónimo

Recibí una llamada super extraña esta tarde.
Un número oculto y una persona susurrando:
Yo: “hello?”
X: “Sid?”
Yo: “ya, who’s this?”
Un silencio.
X: “I love you. I love you. I want to be with you”
Yo: “huh??”
La persona al otro lado de la linea continua susurrando diciendo algo que no entiendo, solo: “I love you, I want to be with you” alcanzo a escuchar.
Yo: “well thank you but I’m not quite sure who you are, you know what? If you are who I think you are, I’m going to give you a call to your mobile”
X: “ok…”
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E intenté llamar a mi contacto pero no cogió la llamada, supuse que seguía trabajando y era por eso. Así que la identidad de X me es un misterio (ya se lo preguntaré si lo veo más tarde).
La verdad no vengo repartiendo mi número a cualquiera y además quién en su sano juicio se montará una escena así?
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Joder y según yo que no me gusta el drama. Pero este incidente me parece capítulo de tvnovela. =s

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Mapping emotions

It might seem a bit geeky, but I gave it a thought, pulled out the bit of experience and wrote it down. In the end science is about observation, isn’t it?
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Putting it into figures of percentages I tried to map my states of mental health, mood, blues, however you want to call them. It’s no secret, because I’m sure more than any has ever had ups and downs (peaks and troughs), therefore I show you my results first, then I explain.

If you see the red line is current year, the “relevant” period to consider.
Observe the fall of the lines towards autum (October, November) during this year, which looks like a pattern compared to last year. Maybe not so much compared to 2007, but that is because I moved to Barcelona from Germany and if you can see it was declining towards September and then it went up, with the unescapable trough which appeared delayed finally in February 2008.
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With these examples (and I also recall similar phenomenon of low mood in previous winters 2006 & 2005), I came to conclude together with my doctor, that I may suffer from a called “Seasonal affective disorder”. Since throughout the year I’m normally quite motivated, focused, perky; but in autum. Hence this condition is to not to be neglected, especially when its manifestation is physical that it interefers with (just by the fact of making a bit more complicated) the day to day activities.
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But hey! Everyone is crazy, right? Some maybe more than others. Thus, even coping with this, I don’t see a problem at all. Everything is perfect as it is.

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I love milky boys

Alright, I am not going to pretend I neglect brown skinned either, that is not the case at all.
But there is something about the white ones.
As if the opposites appeal to each other, there is that factor of interest which is related to want to have that which you are not.
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And living in a country where the incidence of meeting such a desired prototype is more probable, drives me to finally put in black on white: milky boys, golden (or also reddish) hair, light eyes & specially with a strong accent, hell yeah!
All of the above rock.

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